On Saturday morning I wrote a post titled ‘So this is me…’ where I was honest about my depression & anxiety issues along with my low self confidence & body image, and I was feeling positive. Then on Saturday night I had a complete meltdown…
We had a lovely night in, enjoying a glass of wine & a movie. I was in my comfy PJ’s which were shorts so my hubby being the cheeky buggar he is (which I love him for) decided to take a cheeky little pic of me bending over to reach something in the fridge. Normally this would not have bothered me in the slightest & we’d have had such a giggle about it but this time I instantly burst into tears when he showed me the photo. The back of my thighs looked horrendous, they looked huge & dimply and I couldn’t help my reaction, I cried my eyes out demanding he delete the pic immediately.
He did not know what to do with himself, he was so upset that he’d upset me but didn’t get why it had made me cry. Over & over he told how beautiful I was and how much he loves my legs and bum and how amazing I look in my little PJ’s which was why he took the pic in the first place. My hubby is an amazing man, not just for trying to comfort me but because I know he means it. He can’t hide the cheeky look on his face when I’m wearing a short skirt or a tight top, and for that I love him so much. He makes me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. But it’s me that has the issue, I felt ridiculous once I’d calmed down, I was shocked by my extreme reaction & the hatred I felt for myself when I saw that photo. Sunday was a hard day to get through, I had to battle with myself to eat properly but with the support of my hubby and some lovely Twitter friends I got through the day. Then this morning when we woke up he told me again how beautiful I am and how much he loves every inch of me and I feel ready to face the week ahead.
Depression & low self confidence can be a bitch but I’m working on it, one day at a time.
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Don’t let it beat you. Its not the truth, depression just plays with your mind in such a mean way! Your bodyhas carried two gorgeous kids, try not to ever feel paranoid about that coz its the most beautiful thing ever! Seriously, you’re hot! 🙂 x
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Most days I’m fine but then when it hits, it really hits! I think it came back with a vengeance this weekend as we’ve had a tough week. Thanks for such lovely comments xx
It’s a horrible feeling isn’t it, we are so quick to judge ourselves most harshly, when we should actually be searching out for the good points. I think we’re conditioned to it from a young age, when told not to brag, or be pleased with yourself. What message are we sending? Very thought provoking, and of course relatable. Thanks so much for linking to #AllAboutYou, really hope to have you back again – live on Tuesday x
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Thanks so much, it was a really hard post to write as it is so personal x
Ah I’m so sorry you felt like this, but thanks for sharing. I can imagine reacting the same way at times. It sounds like you have a great, supportive and loving husband. I suffer with low self-confidence too and it is bloody hard. Keep working on it, you are be-you-tiful! 🙂 xx #brillblogposts
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Thanks so much, I’m well on the mend but you’re right it’s so hard. We need to be our own biggest fan x
Oh my gosh, I could have written this myself.
We are our worst critics when it comes to body image but the reassurance from a good man, or woman, goes a long way to rebuilding confidence.
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It really does, we shouldn’t rely on another for our self worth but it really helps to build us back up again x
I so get you. i wish I can expound. I wish I can tell you everything. I cant but one thing I can tell you is that I am working on how to be confident again. I always fail. But I always try again =(
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That’s the key, instead of falling deeper we need to build ourselves back up x
Oh honey so sorry to read this, we all feel like this, I’m constantly deleting unflattering pictures. Your husband loves you and you, I, we all need to work on loving ourselves more, lots of love. Thanks for linking up to #brilliantblogposts
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Thanks lovely, hopefully it was just a blip I’ve not felt this bad for a while now but so many people have commented that they feel just the same so I’m so glad I wrote it